Sepia-tone Loving

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I'm a soul-consuming individual. Passion extends to immense measures through my initiation. I write with reason. Occasionally, I make logic, but it's rare to become on a stable comprehensive level with me for I am naturally unpredictable. I am big on spontaneity and I get a radiant kick out of adventure. I love tremendously. I don't expect to become famous but I do have high standards when assumed to encounter someone fresh. I choose whom I want to stay and assist me in living and all that luxurious privileges. Not the girl next door. I'm not ordinary, not amazing.
	28 December 2009, 06:05 Back to square one As I lay afloat above the mystifying oceanic zone, I was able to imbibe my current life's state. I could hear my heartbeats, bum bum bum. I was comparatively calm and the setting was rather somber. Though I imagined a microcosm of indefinite happiness and laughter. The word 'no' was refelected upon my every acceptance when playing one game developed by a mentor of ours. Their voices were getting further off more muffled to my surprise. I didn't let that intrude on the seemingly peaceful ambience. I felt extremely light. Lighter than paper weight. I didn't feel ordinary. But I started to hear nothing but the water seeping in my ears and my heartbeats once again. They beat and beat again. I had floated beyond their reach. Their sound. I didn't panic though. Just opened my eyes and looked towards their direction and swam to them. Farewell introspective cloud. It's not about the whole experience I had with my time alone in the disguised polluted water. It's about my entire nervous system resting on a level I rarely encounter. Life is at this point where I do not want to mess things up. I have six months. Six months until I walk down the graduation aisle or pathway to my future endeavors. I could care less about people who will eventually stand in my way. People are only human. Triggers me to reflect on a recent blessing. For once I felt like I belonged with people I had just met. I mean who knew that love was really truly what people needed to carry on with our lives. I definitely felt a lovely vibe. That interesting and wonderful experience affected my view on pre-judgement undoubtedly. Which brings me to you. The one near perfect thing in my life. My constant. Endless rambling, unlimited heart access, free for all cliche temptation, and neverending possibilities for increase on anything and everything. I love thee with a passion. With confidence. With unyielding precautions. With inevitability desire. We're almost always laughing or smiling. The ineluctable i miss you's and mandatory i love you's. The ranting and contrasting with you is always entertaining. Our adventurous personalities. Our inability to be separated reassures me. A-Z conversations and conformism insults. I am grateful for everything I experience and share with you. Everyone we affect and vice versa. Every place we declaim ours for a moment. I wouldn't mind spending every waking moment with you. I don't see a future without you in it. You were in my past, you are my present. You know all of this already, but this is merely a reminder. And we have reached a brief conclusion about reminders. This holiday season doesn't seem so festively displayed or anything of that ordinance. Kind of makes me sad to be a part of such a pathetic generation of laziness and technology-dependence. But this is ALL just because I haven't written anything in awhile and I felt like doing so. I'm being apprehensive. For bringing in 2010. :o) 07 December 2009, 19:13 Maybe it's the weather So I've reached the eighth of December and a dream has reoccured. Whether it's been conjured into reality is out of the question for afar you look to deceit and perfection. Second guessing yourself only helps because you believe it does. A belief is only as true as you deem it to be. You're clever, you are. You skip a few levels and go for the gold. You go for the gold while to some you are the gold yourself. You recite straight to the point but you enjoy pointless ideals. You create ways to your advantage, pathways to your desires but you desire ways to others' advantages. You smile, you're risible. Extremely risible to the point where you can taunt your own flaws. You appear dominant. Feel dominance. You are truly terrified of something. You make the best of events. Reason being you're with someone you don't want to lose. She doesn't know where she's getting at with this. Lack of inspiration.